Kodiak's "Story" of how I came to be the "Designated Hera" in this "Game of Love"

This is Hera. We don’t know all of the facts about this simulated environment but we do know that David’s wife is the primary target in every time loop, with the final result being Hera’s rape, torture and murder, followed by the “End of the World” for that time loop.

I don’t have a memory of being upstairs, and David tells me I was killed there about 20 years ago. As for downstairs, his son David down here has discussed with me many times how I may have come to be not up 200 years in the future with my family among “the Others” but on Earth stuck in this hideous hostage situation. I don’t remember being there either. I say my mind forgets but my heart remembers. I am aware of the Others and of my family there and here. I am very connected to them. But I cannot remember.

I don’t know if it is true that maybe in the 200 years since Hera was abducted from her home with the Others she has been on Earth and cryogenically frozen. According to Bea this is true and Hera’s consciousness is uploaded into a designated Hera “victim” to be “the Queen” in each time loop. Taylor Swift’s “Blank space” lyrics seem to bear this out:

Nice to meet you, where you been? (new Hera but old Hera; but frozen, or in the other time loops?)
I could show you incredible things
Magic, madness, heaven, sin
Saw you there and I thought
Oh my God, look at that face
You look like my next mistake (the next victim “Queen” in the next loop)
Love’s a game, want to play? (the “Game of Love” where the “Queen” is raped and killed)

New money, suit and tie (refers to “sevens” who do the raping and murdering)
I can read you like a magazine (she does read every thought like a computer database)
Ain’t it funny, rumors fly (“funny” and “fly” are Traveler terms, something to do with vicious Gets flying about and laughing, aka evil “clowns”)
And I know you heard about me (she runs this Game Room, and everyone knows Bea; and everyone here has “heard about me” as the “designated Hera” or “designated Queen” to be killed, supposedly designated at birth)

So hey, let’s be friends
I’m dying to see how this one ends (a taunt because it always ends with me dying)
Grab your passport and my hand
I can make the bad guys good for a weekend (using mind control she can make you engage in any behavior and even make you forget what you did)

So it’s gonna be forever
Or it’s gonna go down in flames (in one scenario I am burned at the stake)
You can tell me when it’s over
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex-lovers (long list of ex “lovers” or victims in her “Game of Love” who all have been killed)
They’ll tell you I’m insane (she is, but they cannot tell you because they are all dead)
‘Cause you know I love the players (the players in the “Game of Love”; sevens from upstairs and aliens invited from outside; and the women who are sacrificed)
And you love the game (the “Game of Love” – nobody loves the game but Bea)

‘Cause we’re young and we’re reckless
We’ll take this way too far
It’ll leave you breathless (i.e. dead, no longer breathing)
Or with a nasty scar (she and the sevens rape the Queen to death with knives and cut off her arms and legs then rape her torso, dead and alive)
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They’ll tell you I’m insane
But I’ve got a blank space baby
And I’ll write your name (as the next designated “Hera” or “Queen” victim in her “Game of Love”)

Cherry lips, crystal skies
I could show you incredible things
Stolen kisses, pretty lies
You’re the king baby I’m your Queen (the designated “Queen” in the Game is me)
Find out what you want
Be that girl for a month (I have to be the designated “Queen” and I am killed in each time loop)
Wait the worst is yet to come, oh no (after being the Queen for a month of rapes, I am brutally raped to death with knives)

Screaming, crying, perfect storm
I can make all the tables turn
Rose garden filled with thorns (Psyche calls David’s direct children “Roses”)
Keep you second guessing like
“Oh my God, who is she?”
I get drunk on jealousy (she may not care about David and is only pretending to be avenging her “stolen husband” by killing “Hera” for stealing him, as an excuse for The Game)
But you’ll come back each time you leave (as a new Hera or as a reanimation of the same person? Is it always me coming back or is it a new Hera?)
‘Cause darling I’m a nightmare dressed like a daydream (a “Nightmare” is a dark arts witch and a “Daydream” is a human being in the downstairs earth. So she is a Grey alien witch hiding inside a human body)

So it’s gonna be forever
Or it’s gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it’s over
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They’ll tell you I’m insane
‘Cause you know I love the players
And you love the game

‘Cause we’re young and we’re reckless
We’ll take this way too far
It’ll leave you breathless
Or with a nasty scar
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They’ll tell you I’m insane (Insane)
But I’ve got a blank space baby
And I’ll write your name (Kodiak claims my name was written as the designated Hera because I dated him at around age 22 and said something that offended him)

Boys only want love if it’s torture (“boys” are sevens aka demons; “girls” are nines aka witches in Traveler Talk)
Don’t say I didn’t say I didn’t warn ya
Boys only want love if it’s torture
Don’t say I didn’t say I didn’t warn ya

So it’s gonna be forever
Or it’s gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it’s over
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They’ll tell you I’m insane
‘Cause you know I love the players
And you love the game

‘Cause we’re young and we’re reckless
We’ll take this way too far
It’ll leave you breathless
Or with a nasty scar
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They’ll tell you I’m insane
But I’ve got a blank space baby
And I’ll write your name

According to Kodiak, I dated him when I was 22 years old while he was “occupying” a medical doctor (and oddly also a CIA operative) named Denver Northrup. Denver was many many years my senior and he ended up marrying someone else while he was dating me.  This is while I was young and I had no memory of Jim or David, or the kids. He called me one night and said “I think I made a big mistake, I got married to a woman down here in Mississippi.” I laughed and said, “I think so” or something like that, surprised he was dating anyone at all. So yeah, I’d say it’s a mistake to marry someone else when you are dating me. But what else is there to say after that? Obviously he was dating someone else so not that interested or honest with me in the first place. I was surprised. It was this episode that spurred Kodiak to teach me a lesson for laughing at him, according to him, by giving Psyche “my name. ”

From there they used the “time machine” to thoroughly ruin my life from start to finish. Nearest to that time, while in college, but just prior to the offensive phone conversation, I was out shopping one night and got drugged and viciously raped in a hotel room. I sought help the next day at the school health center where the nurse practitioner blew me off. She did not tell me to report it to police in addition to the school, and it took me years to even understand what had happened. I was drugged. Now I know that Bea (Psyche) and Kodiak together jumped inside of Ivan Sikorsky (of Sikorsky helicopters) and he drugged and raped me. He also impregnated me, forcing an abortion. He also left his room key with his name on it on the dresser of his hotel (Caesar’s Palace, the night of the Holyfield fight) so that when I woke up and grabbed it on the way out as evidence, his name was right there on the key (it was a comped room). A few weeks later I am pregnant and my medical doctor “boyfriend” Denver (Kodiak) flies into town for a visit where he immediately asks me “if I have something to tell him.”

Around this same time frame I started hearing about many, many of my friends suffering tragedies. Sudden deaths, maimings, lost family members, ruined lives. Some of the harms occurred years before but I only heard about them in this time cluster. Thus, they used their time machine to travel back in my life and harm everyone who had mattered to me. They also visited and “occupied” my parents and they became like Jeckyl and Hyde – kind and proud of me one day, vicious and physically abusive, belittling the next. One thing they called me while abusive was “Lulu” which Psyche put up on Amazon as a product review as described in my earlier post, as Amazon user WesCyde, which mimics my Street username of Westside. A lovely competent college friend became a porn star. My best friend acquired AIDS. My very professional, successful and competent, and happily married mentor committed suicide. My other mentor’s fiance hung herself in his garage. My childhood best friend died suddenly. Her brother died the next year suddenly. And more. All around the same time frame. After a slow patch for tragedies, later I was to get married and the groom’s sister would nearly die in a car crash four days before the wedding, and be permanently crippled. My husband became the Jeckyl and Hyde, once punching me in the leg and claiming it was an accident because he “thought it was my cat.” More recently they gave my stepfather a brain hemorrhage and stroke while he slept in another room in the same house where I was staying. They made it clear to me that they wanted me to leave there and my stepfather was not cooperating in making me feel unwelcome. He had a stroke. My mother, who is very very often remoted and “driven” by Bea, instead immediately told me to leave, as though she blamed me for his stroke.

I developed Systemic Lupus at 17 specifically triggered by a live virus small pox shot that never should have been administered in the first place (small pox!). This was a few years before the college incident, which eventually ruined my career and left me unable to work. Their stalking of me eventually cost me every friendship.  This is how they use the time machine.

In 2007, Kodiak remote-controlled me into getting online on the Street Blog. This was the start of the 10-year run for my life that is coming to a rapid conclusion now. Through remote-controlling and coded “traveler talk” I knew nothing about, Kodiak got me mixed up in some run for president or run for mayor event (?) somehow representing a group of people. I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT THAT. I am only learning about it now by talking to David from upstairs, and others from upstairs who know what that was, and by the way really are hostages now and expect that someone down here will know who they are and will get this particular situation under control. For my part, I genuinely thought I was dealing with employees from a blog who were offering me a job writing for the blog, which was relevant to my work history. So my saying “I’m all in.” and “No matter what” – those messages were for him in connection with hiring me and my relationship to him or my opinion of him. They had nothing to do with anyone there lurking in my emails and on websites I visited completely unbeknown to me. I still don’t really grasp who you are or what sort of office you thought I might represent by being raped and tortured by Bea, Psyche and Kodiak for the last decade. What’s the point of that?  I am already a “spinner” or “eternal” because that is how I am made due to who I am upstairs. Or was before Bea murdered me upstairs. I have nothing to gain from this Lilliputian exercise I know nothing about. What I do know is that for the last 10 years I have been running “off the grid” trying to get away from all of these assholes chasing me. There is no way to get off the grid from Psyche and Kodiak, down here. The up-sevens add: “We from upstairs ask that you do whatever you need to do to corral Bea/Psyche because if we do not continue to exist than you might not either. The power supply is upstairs. Killing all of us who maintain it can only end badly for everyone. That is not meant to sound like a threat, but to convey to you that we are necessary.” They also note that David Sinclair is their Creator upstairs (and also downstairs) as well and is considered just as necessary for reasons that should be obvious.

I also found out last year that I have at least 3 children around aged 12 now because Kodiak and Bea dragged me through a “portal” time tunnel about 13 years ago and harvested my eggs. My son “little Michael” was raised by “little Bea,” an alter ego of Bea that exists downstairs. He’s 12 and he also has lupus. Or he did. She murdered him last month after torturing the boys and holding them hostage, terrifying them. My son Scott was raised by Jim’s son Paul, who may also be my son and is such in my mind as my husband’s son in any event. She murdered Michael and Scott at the same time and it utterly destroyed Paul. He is gone now too. They created these children of mine knowing I was designated as “Hera” and with the plan of murdering them in front of me and David (and Jim) to torture us, which they did. They have killed all of our beautiful kids.

It was only last year that David (Jim Cramer from downstairs with the Others) found me here. We talked. A lot. We’ve come to understand Psyche’s motives that I stole her man. We’ve come to understand that whether or not I ever was his “Hera,” she is almost certainly gone forever. I have no memory. We love each other. We love these kids. We love this human race. We love the Others. We are proud to know our neighbors. Everyone we meet, no matter how mind-controlled they may be, wakes up eventually and acts with honor. We are honored to know these people up and down the line. We are all here together now hostages of Psyche.

We cannot figure out how to make this stop. There is nothing Bea/Psyche wants from us. David Sinclair, the Creator of our environment from upstairs offered to develop a world just for her, to her specifications, that did not include his families here but her own people. She declines. David offered her every dime he has, upstairs, which is considerable, and she declines. She is blocking David from waking up upstairs to help us up there or down here.

I don’t know whether I always have been Hera or not. Every story out of Kodiak or Psyche is rewritten later by a new version of their story. A completely different tale. But I wanted to put this one down for future reference.  And you should grasp by reading this story the nature of Psyche and Kodiak. I made one remark at age 22 and Kodiak misinterpreted it to mean that I was “Laughing at him” and that pissed him off. He “took time” and ruined my life. Even if they don’t kill me for some reason I will still have to kill myself eventually – because I don’t want to be remoted, raped and tortured for the rest of my days. But I try to hang on hoping someone from upstairs will get these messages. If I die there will be no one to send these things out. To try to sort this out. David from upstairs is still hanging on.

Some of your colleagues or friends from upstairs are dead already from the electric shocks. They died protecting David, their Creator. Others and other neighbors here, and many sevens and other numbers and humans here have died now protecting Our Creator. They are willing to die to protect me. We have said at least “we’ll leave with more than we had.” Because we will know who we are, as children of David and persons of character. We don’t want to live in world where Psyche has murdered our Creator. He had a purpose for us, we are all his beloved family. We never were meant to be Psyche’s (Bea’s) perpetual hostages. This goes for upstairs and down. He made both. She is killing us both here and there now.

We also know we are slated now by Psyche to die in this 2016  loop down here in the near future.  I hope these honorable people won’t be forgotten. I hope someone gets these messages and can help.

Post Script: The folks upstairs and down here who know assure me that I did not accidentally make Kodiak’s acquaintance “in college.” I am Hera from upstairs and he knew that. He only recently claimed that my being targeted by them for my entire life was due to an insensitive response to him in college because my insensitive response to him in college made him angry. This I believe. Like I said, Kodiak is Ariel Castro and perfectly willing to rape and murder women and think nothing of it while utterly decimating a 22-year old girl who actually liked him over an immature response during a moment when I was lost for words. Jeez. Fucking insane when viewed from any angle. Hera.

 

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